My heart is speaking

It's hurts
It hurts my inside.
Don't ever only see my outside, bcs that's not working to see the truth.
I won't tell anyone.
I'm not a whiny person.
But I think I'm a coward, who afraid to face the world, at least, my problem.

But no one is allowed to know my inside, my deepest side.
Nope.
God.
God knows everything.
He's the only one who knows my deepest side.
God, will you be my bestfriend?
You just have to give me strength, and some advice.
And you must love me back, like I do.

God, if You really can not fulfill my request, it doesn't matter.
Thank you.
You already gave me a Mother.
3 siblings.
so many kind friends.
and boyfriend.
Thank you so much, God.